Beautiful New Easel-Way too Much Pressure!

Look at my beautiful new wooden easel!

It's so pretty, it's so functional, it's sooooo keeping me from producing!!

The pressure is immense. The pressure to do what and from who(m) you ask? The pressure to create wonderful master pieces worthy of making moola. The pressure, I guess, is from none other than me, myself and I. (and a little bit my husband!)

moola |ˈmo͞oˌlä|(also moolah )noun informalmoney.
I do need to earn money. Family circumstances now require that I earn a certain amount of money each month. I never realized how many bricks on my shoulder that would feel like. Kudos to all those out there earning a living. Me, I've just casually disregarded the past 21 years as a free pass to do exactly as I wished, you know: raise the kids, school the kids, church ministry, mission work, cleaning the house. (OK, it hasn't been everything that I wanted to do). But you know what, I have been fortunate enough to NOT feel the pressure of having to earn money. Our family has been monstrously blessed by a husband and daddy who could earn it all for us.Not that my job has been easy. Even more kudos to those stay at home moms. I have cleaned up more throw-up, more animal feces, more dishes, more booboos in 21 years than one can imagine. Those out there who understand the stay at home routine will understand if I don't even attempt to recall all the important tasks that I have accomplished over the child bearing and rearing years. The list would quite frankly be too long. Not to mention, even though I'm going to right now, the long list of support towards my husband so that he can be a success. (All done in love of course!)But now comes the scary reality of what I'm going through. I've been a stay at home mom, but I've have also always been an artist. A FREE artist. I have come to the conclusion that everyone loves my artwork, whether it be a mural on their wall, a portrait of their child, a cake for their party; WHEN IT'S FREE! All these years that people have said to me, "You should go into business!" "You should charge money for that!" Well now I need to people! But no one is buying!! HARSH reality. I'm still soaking it in and mulling it over. I am actually trying not to become depressed over it. It's hard.I am relying on God to rescue me today. Exodus 14:13-14I need to remember that He has a plan for me. He gave me the gift of creativity. Now use it, gosh darn it. Does it sound like I'm starting to panic? I guess the reality is that I really don't want to work at a minimum wage job. No offense to those who do, but hey- I have 21 plus years of some kind of experience!
By the way, see my SmugMug or Etsy above to help me earn money!! 
Also, now providing "Creative Babysitting!" (This involves home made play dough and art lessons) send me an email for a flyer with details! jandjemery@gmail.com