I was foolishly and feverishly trying to un-knot my ball of yarn in the doctors office yesterday as I impatiently waited to be called upon. How, oh how, did I ever let this yarn get so knotted and so tangled. I was only trying to do good. I was attempting to make Xana a crocheted throw for her apartment. I was simply trying to keep my hands busy, as most of you know, I don't sit still well. So I'm leading the end through the tangled knot, I'm shuffling the ball as to loosen the strands. I'm gritting my teeth, I'm huffing and puffing (on the inside, I didn't want that to show). And as I'm doing all this I'm thinking "uuuuggghh, why me!" "I don't have time for this!" and other series of very worthless thoughts.
Then I heard the kindly nurse sitting next to the elderly couple discussing the woman's "plan." "You must take your nausea meds, dear, they will only make you feel better." More string to untangle, my fingers are moving faster, but my mind is moving slower and I'm eavesdropping harder. In a sadly soft voice, "how long will this last?" ""Oh honey, just hang in there, you're strong!" My knots are loosening. I have a long ways to go, but my racing thoughts are changing. I'm only here to do blood-work. Worst case is that I need my annual iron infusion. This lady next to me, she sounded so sad, so weak. God softened my heart, my streaming thoughts. He gave me a run down of about 200 or more things to be thankful for. And I know that that is the short list. My mind was suddenly jam packed with the blessings in my life. This included my knotted yarn. I was lucky to have yarn. Just having come back from Mozambique, yarn would be a luxury item. In fact, I've never even seen it there. I was lucky I could purchase yarn, much less enough to make a blanket. The nurse ended with; "You'll do great, just hang in there!" The elderly lady and her husband slowly stood up and she said, "I'll try." I said a prayer for them. I got my yarn untangled. Got my mind untangled as well. Then I was called in for my blood work.
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Aww, Joanna, what an awesome God we serve to remind you of the preciousness of life. It's interesting that my mind has turned to the many blessings we enjoy as citizens of this country. Just to have food -- not scraps but fresh fruit, milk and clean water -- wow, I'm humbled. But, I struggle with how to help the many who are not so fortunate. I'm praying for guidance and I'll say a prayer today for that woman in your doctor's office. Thanks for sharing. - Shannon
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